A woman once told me that Perfectionism is unhealthy. That aspiring for perfection only sets you up to fail. That by never being satisfied with what you have achieved can be detrimental to your wellbeing. Because how can one celebrate success when you believe you should always be doing better?
I used to think perfectionism was healthy; it’s like having a personal trainer perched on my shoulder, motivating and willing me to do better. I still do believe it is healthy to some degree I just have to be careful to not cross the line.I think it all comes down to wanting it all and wanting the best. And when I say the best I don’t only mean designer handbags, clothing and accessories. I also mean in my relationships with my partner, family and friends, in my workplace, in my health and fitness. Gosh I feel exhausted just typing it.
Sometimes I have so much to do I end up doing nothing at all. Par example this week my boyfriend jetted back to WA to work for five weeks. As I hit the snooze button for the gym at 5:45 the first few mornings of his absence I thought; NAH! I’m having a week off, a week off 5:45 alarms and gym sessions but also a week off really caring what I put in my mouth. Now I know it sounds slightly obnoxious but another thing you should know about me is that I’m stubborn as hell and if I want or don’t want to do something it will happen.
This is why I’m a firm believer in doing things you love; otherwise you too are going to have a ‘NAH’ moment and give up on something mediocre or ‘imperfect’ in your life. Except it could be something more meaningful like your relationship or job.
I’m not sure if this ‘soul searching’ charade I have going on has anything to do with my baby sister travelling across the globe for four months, while I sit here waiting for goals and dreams to be achieved.
And just like that the personal trainer is on my shoulder once again. I want to be fit, I don’t want to spend a fortune on health and finding out what is wrong with me, I want my diploma finished, I want to travel, I want to buy a house and here we go again I WANT, I WANT, I WANT.
So then what I realise is the only thing stopping my wants is me. So I’ve got a plan and I’m going to write it down.
- I rented two seasons of Gossip Girl I made myself take one season back as punishment, diploma comes first, plan 1
- I need to blog more often, if not for you, for me what a great release, plan 2
- Gym, health starts tomorrow, always start on a Monday so much easier than starting mid week, plan 3
- I have my passport, I must now research places to go, plan 4
- The bank balance needs to increase for a house, so I guess I’ll back on the those unnecessary extravagances, just a little plan 5
- I’ll research my next course to start after finishing my diploma, I don’t want to give myself too much free time, plan 6
Hmm well there we have it, that should be achievable and I’ll try my hardest to remember to pat myself on the back from time to time.
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